gambaran sebenar..

penyiksaan ..

and muka2 orang tak cukup udara

gambar ini jelas menunjukkan
ke-pucatan + ke-pancitan..
hua..hua..

dan akhirnya letih setengah mati itu

dibalas dengan satu panorama indah memukau pandangan

subhanallah...

Trip ke Gunung Gading - tercapai juaa....

tarikh: 9 ogos 2009 [ahad yang berkabus]

hari yang dinanti

kini bertukar menjadi kenangan

ada manis..dan ada pahit

namun bakal segar dalam ingatan

my ONE MALAYSIA friends

yang sudi meluangkan masa berhibur di kaki gunung

walaupun hanya sehari bersama

but yes..it takes like forever

maklum la..pertama kali mendaki

keh..keh..

sahabat sahabat yang setia

indahnya dunia bila bersama!!

dah akhirnya..

gunung gading ditawan jua....

alhamdulillah..

[more pics @ my facebook]

mari menyanyi..!

The Show lyrics by Lenka

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop'
Cause its to much, yeah its a lot
To be something I'm not
I'm a fool, out of love'
Cause I just can't get enough
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
The sun is hot in the sky
Just like a giant spot light
The people follow the signs
And synchronize in time
It's a joke, nobody knowsthey've got a ticket to the show.
Yeah, I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show
dum de dum, da dum de dum
and just enjoy the show
da dum de dum, da dum de dum
and just enjoy the show
I want my money back (3x)
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back(x3)
Just enjoy the show

nothing to do...

assalamualaikum...

beku lak tangan nak menaip..lately, asik mengikuti perkembangan demo kat sogo..

aduh...ralat sungguh tak dapat join demo tuu..seriously, aku memang rasa terpanggil untuk turut serta andai masa dan keadaan mengizinkan..tanggal 1 ogos 2009 mungkin akan jadi satu hari yang bersejarah..we never know..n i want to be there..seblom ni dah keciwa tak dapat join demo PPSMI..n this time ISA pulak..

at least nanti bila ada anak, boleh gak aku story.."mummy, pe jadi mase 1 ogos 2009?" and aku ada jawapan untuk itu.."mummy wuz there.."

aku tgok tb3 x sudah2 mengutuk orang yang berdemo ni..diperalat oleh pembangkang la, bukan budaya kita la, rugikan suma orang and everything yang teruk2..kalau kita hanya mendengar dan menerima..mungkin hampir termakan dengan ideologi tuu..tp sometime kita kena jugak fikir di sebalik ape yang pembaca brita tu cakap..

by the way....kenapa orang berdemo?????perkara ni yang patut difikir...

orang malaysia dah suka berdemo skarang..sebab suara mereka dah tak didengari oleh kerajaan..ni bukan pertama kali pon orang nak akta zalim ni dihapuskan..tapi kerajaan tanak..y?

sebab untuk jamin keselamatan..fine..then kenapa tahan diorang tanpa bicara?ske hati kurung orang 2 3 tahun...ape salah org tu?ok kalo salah, then y tanak ikut prosedur mahkamah, ada lawyer and everything...??kalo betul de salah..kalo x salah???

simple kan???tu sebab orang anggap akta ni zalim..ia diwujudkan oleh seorang diktator yang tak boleh terima teguran..mase tu gov is always rite kan..but this time no more!

bila difikirkan balik...mungkin akan ada lebih ramai penentang kerajaan andai akta ini dihapuskan..sebabnya?orang dah tak takut nak tetang kerajaan, and dare to say everything, demos everywhare..cuz tak ada lagi ISA...akta ni, just like 'kes naya' lah...bila somebody come to ur house n says, anda ditahan..!

tp itu dulu..sekarang dah ramai yang ada kesedaran..thats y since PPSMI, orang dah tak takut nak berdemo..ini bukan budaya kita??sound silly..berbelas tahun blajar sejarah..masa orang melayu nak menentang Malayan Union, apa kita buat??berdemo jugak kan??bawak jugak kain rentang tepi jalan "HAPUSKAN MALAYAN UNION"...rite?? sket sebanya, ini MEMANG budaya kita...bukan kita je..tp seluruh rakyat kat dunia ni..bila dah suara rakyat tak diambil kisah, krajaan gubal policy sesuka hati..end up akan berakhir kat tepi jalan jugak..macam movie V for Vendetta...inilah isu yang cuba disampaikan dalam cite tu..memang real!

Then weird laa bila peniaga cakap rugi beribu sebab demo ni..izit??mana mungkin peniaga ni rugi dengan kehadiran 10,000 orang kat pot diorang meniaga??yang buatkan peniaga ni rugi ialah bila FRU sembur air n pemedih mata..sembur asid..that sucks!!aku ase polis tu yang make thing worst..natijahnya, memang peniaga pon yang jadi mangsa...orang berdemo bukan untuk create huru hara or what..just nak sampaikan memorandum..n berhimpun untuk suarakan pendirian masing2 yang akta tu patot dihapuskan..ingt orang suka ke berdemo?hujung2 minggu baik lepak depan tv je kat umah.. tapi disebabkan kesedaran n semangat nak memperjuangkan menda yang benar, ramai jugak yang turun mase tu...n aku yakin, most of it memang anak2 muda, student2 universiti n para intelektual & professional..cuz kalo ikut statistik pon, golongan ni yang slalu buat BN kalah masa by-election..heheh

mungkin memang sudah ditakdirkan..aku disini hanya mampu memerhati..tapi aku tetap kagum dngan semangat semua orang yang join demo tu...andai ada kesempatan dalam hidup ni, i want to be part of them...

ok back to reality...untuk minggu ni, aku standby untuk ber-debate..dalam 4 minggu lagi..& ada satu tugasan untuk me-review 1 buku karya Jonathon Porritt (Capitalism: as if the worls matters)..phew..ape tuh?? insyaallah harap semua akan berjalan lancar..this becoming sabtu, planning untuk mendaki gunung gading..sebelom fly to Miri khamis depan..insyaallah..till then, have a good time!

why?

oh yah..betul jugak quote kami the movie tuh..
hidup ini memang palat..tapi besok masih ada..
kadang2 susah nak memahami persepsi orang
tetambah kepada orang yang takde keje nak buat
melainkan menilai kehidupan kita
kita happy ke tak?
kita bahagia ke tak?
is thare any problem kalo aku happy?
or is there a BIG DEAL pulak kalo aku tak happy?
or macam mana pulak kalo aku pura2 happy???
wohoo..boleh buat thesis tuu..
untuk mengkaji sejauhmana perilaku aku
menyembunyikan perasan...
kenapa menda ni tak habis2 datang?
since aku skolah..ingat dah habes
bawak2 sampai universiti pulak????
if u're happy, than i'm happy for u laa..
but if i AM happy..apesal suma orang x pecaya pulak?
n assume yang aku berpura2 keriangan??
huhh??got such thing meh??
aku ni rahsia pon x pandai simpan..aptah lagi perasaan beb!!
if aku gembira, then i just said it loud..if not, then you can see me cry...
being miles away from home..sometime memang ar sedey..
but i'm 22..n i'm old enough to handle my life...ALONE!
yess...but it doesnt mean that i'm lonely......
nobody forced me to be here...

i was here because I WANT TO BE HERE...

its my choice...pilihan ke4 dalam senarai universiti selepas UM, UKM & UIA..

bukan pilihan ke 7 @ ke 8

atau 9 10... [perlu ke aku explain sampai mcm nih??]

dgree in economics memang pilihan aku dari skolah...so what?

aku ada kawan yg baik, ada bilik yang tak payah share ngan sesapa..

xde paper kene repeat...tak payah fk pasal extend2 ke hapa..

ptptn dapat...fmly ok..bf baik...than what else?

AKU SIHAT!

there's no such thing to be sad @ kecewa setiap masa....

i've alot of things to do..

i loved what i'm doing..

banyak menda baru yang boleh di-explore..

daripada menangisi masa2 yang tak dapat diluangkan bersama org2 yang aku sayang

hidup memang tak selalu happy...n tak selalu gembira jugak..

but its part of your life...

pandai2 arr nak colour....

hidup aku tak banyak masalah...

yang ada cuma keje assingment yang bertimbun..

kelas 3 hari je seminggu...masih nak bagi reason untuk tension?

thats bullshit...!

stimboat & mrewang

salam again n again

sejak akhir-akhir ini

banyak pulak perancangan yang dibuat

lepas trip pegi serikin

n plan without planning untuk makan angin ke miri

[which i CAN'T wait]

janet had plan to meet with the new friends..oh yeah..

plan punya plan..

end up we came with a decision untuk makan stimboat

huaaa..thats a gud plan from janet chong and the gang!

finally kami berjaya menghimpunkan diri..btw, last time makan stim boat mase bila ponn tak hengat...tp this time agak baru..cuz being at the new place with the new people..

oh man i loved that...

so ahli jemaah seramai 8 orang kesemuanya..4 dari ekonomi antarabangsa [my classmates laa] n 4 others dari kos ekonomi industri..oways there, but never being so close...

tp sume mcm dh kenal lama je bila jumpa...

ullallaaa........

oh yeah..kuching ni memang terkenal ngan makanan laut yang MURAH...

n guess what?trip untuk kali ni, EAT AS MUCH AS U CAN...bayar cume rm17..

yup..cuma tujohblas hingget..berbaloi gile..dah arr makan buffet..

then kedai tu akan sediakan 2 periuk..1 untuk stim..1 lg untuk goreng.

then ade butter provided..

besides than makanan sejuk beku, mcm ketam roll laa, fish ball/cake laa, n mcm2 bahan ala2 yong taufu tu, ade jugak daging ayam n lembu yang diperap..

means that, bile bakar..giler sedap macam sate!!!

so its your option whether nak stim atau bakar..

sumanya atas periuk kuali tu lah..then de bg ajinamoto, n garam some more!

then ade jugak nasik n ice cream..sume tu leh bantai amik je bape banyak korang nak

all included dalm harga rm17 tuu...phew..

babe...gua makan sampai nak muntah!

then lepas peru kenyang, & since sewa keta pon 4 jam

kitorang pon jenjalan laa kat area town kuching tu..

macam pelancong arr pulak..since tempat tu memang banyak mat saleh pon..

n banyak lah aksi gila n poyo berjaya dirakamkan

walopon pakai cmera handphone..huhuk

biase le..student..mane mampu beli SLR...hek2

kadang2 seronot jugak merewang memalam ngan member yang banyak kepala

tapi satu ideologi nih...

and the most important thing..dapat kuar dengan aman tanpa menerima panggilan dari mak ayah...[bf tu biase le..]

&&&...being the only one 'muslim' girl among others..pon mencabar jugek beb!
haizz tah arr nape..tak kira mane aku pegi...member yang paling ngam tetap ngan amoi jugek..

alah like people oways said lahh..when you are in Rome, just do what the Romans do..

same goes to me..when you're in sarawak..just do what the sarawakians do..haha

next trip to be: Chicken Hut..insyaallah..with this 'Ngam Ho' team...

yehaaaa....will be back soon

i'm loosing my control...

salam again...
only today i feels like writting..

i woke up at 12pm..& i felt dizzy..
i used to be in the library rite now..
but due to my dizzy-nest
i hold that for a while..

i went to the nearest cafe to buy lunch
even it still far for me to walk
i came back with shaking..n cannot finish my lunch

its weekend...and i'm all alone
my friends going back..leaving me lying on my bed
but i'm not lonely..

i loved taking picture
but i dont have a camera
but poeple still credit me for my picture
eventhough it captured by using my phone

everyone wish to have a nice boyfriend
lucky i have one..
whom nicer than everyone
but most of the time, i exploid the kindness
n can't stop blaming myself for that..

i stole..
even i know it was a sin
but whom should i blame?
when i'm running out of bucks?

for the passed years..
i've been thinking bout my study
what college, what programme..
n now i've only a year to finish
which i can't stop to think bout my career..

i have alot of friends
part of them are my 'buddies'
but only now i realized
my only best buddy is 'her'

i used to get friend with everyone
but none of them was really suit with my soul
n yes..it was only 'her'..
but she's not even know i have a blog..

i troubled a lot of people
i broke the promises
i ruin the plan
i spoil everything
but what can i say..
i'm sorry for that...

i missed my mom
i missed my cat..
i missed to take breath in my home
and of cuz i missed him alot...
but they're miles away.....

i used to be busy doing my final year projects
but i still have time updating my blog
editting my page in friendster, myspace n fb..
n yes..i'm waisting my time

i shop alot
until i overspend my money
but who cares..
i know everyone loves me

i respect my bf very much
not because he's my bf
but bcuz he never show his anger
to the person he love..

i feel wanna cry
but i'm tired of crying
feeling like i'm just waisting my tears

working is sucks...
but i need the bucks
i wish i can be like this forever
which i know i wont

i had a dream..
but it was a nightmare..

i want to get married
with the person that i loved so much
but i'm more prefer to talk about
my own career
can't wait to have my own car
rather than a baby
dreaming of my own house
rather than a husband..
whats wrong with me?

sometimes i loose control
i scold people
but he was always there to calm me
end up..i scold him
but y he never scold me back?

there's alot of things happened
that sometimes i felt regrets
but it wont take long..
pretty soon it happend again..
n i feel regret again..

i have plenty of mistakes
that i called them as 'experience'

i just remember one thing
life is not measured by the number of breath i take
but by the moments that takes my breath away..

thank you for reading..
as long as you understand my words
my 'poor english' doesnt too obvious..

dan akhirnya....

woo-hoo...

finally we made it!

dengan perancangan yang teliti

akhirnya berjaya jugak naik 'bot kayuh'

with my best buddies

azra & janet chong

yeah..i'm hanging by a moment with those sarawakians

at the middle of the 'tasik'

and also with my classmates

mr. awie & mr. franky

dude it was so damn cool..

enjoying the views

feels the wind

free your mind

poponnn..

yeah..tasik oso got traffic jam

cuz people were bz working out

releasing their stress might be..

enjoy your life dude

since you are still alive!

hari membeli dan membelah..

dah lama tunggu hari nih...sebab me & my friends nak g explore 1 tempat ni...

namanya serikin...

tempat ni actually at the border between s'wak & indon..
maka bermula lah sesi penjelajahan melihat bumi tuhan..

sewa kreta half day jer...tp alhamdulillah...finally sampe juak!
actually this is my second time going there..but this time lain skit sebab plan betol2

huk..huk..

perjalanan mengambil masa hampir 2 jam..jalan memang tak smooth langsung..jalan cuma 2 lane je pegi balik..then banyak sangat lori besar sebab on d way nak g tempat tu, memang pass by banyak bukit n kilang simen..i guess la.

mase on the way tu sempat aku snap gambar..cuz takut tetido..hehe..cantik nya awan...

finally.....

we reach there..yeyy...tempat ni macam pasar je sebenarnye..open only on weekends..

ni one of my friend la janet a.k.a d DRIVER yg bertanggung jawab diatas journey kami kali ni..then telekung & handbags tersangat la murah..

on that day..aku borong 3 telekung n 3 handbags d & g, Bonia n LV

fuiyooo....dasyat nye brand..

untuk sape lagik kalo bukan orang kampung..miahaha

habis la orang2 kampung CORNVILLE tertipu pasnih..heheh

ini pic yang 1st time g..tempatnya macam tu lah..a long street with people selling omost the same things..

hah..i'm wearing RAYBAN babe..sebab sunglass besepah..10 rgt plak tu..cangak lagi? panas & penat..tp cam amy cakap la...BERBALOI-BALOI

end up balik dengan kreta yang penuh dengan barang..

next time kalo famly ada, insyaallah sampe la lagi kat sini kot..

go i must...return i will.....

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

haha...sebenarnya lom habis citer gie..that was just a part of the day untuk hari membeli dan membelah...journey diteruskan untuk mencari pot seterusnya..

jeng..jeng..jeng...tempat apakah ini???sale sampe 70%???mane bole tahan..

walopon letih nak mampos g jalan kat serikin, kitorang lepak gak kat pasaraya SPRING ni

dasyat betol dia nya clearance..memang clear habis aku sapu..gugugaga

pergh..kesimpulannya..dah start elegik dah ngn mesin ATM skarang

muahaha......

plan without planning..

yehaa..

finanally my wish untuk menjelajah Borneo akan terlaksana..

a journey to NORTH-WEST sarawak...Miri here i come

stutus: confirmed

depart from Kuching: august 13 2009 @ 19:15 (AK6546)

depart from Miri:august 18 2009 @ 18:50 (AK6547)

"I'm leaving on a jet plane..donno when i'll be back again.."