ihFazillah YahFazka: July 2009

why?

oh yah..betul jugak quote kami the movie tuh..
hidup ini memang palat..tapi besok masih ada..
kadang2 susah nak memahami persepsi orang
tetambah kepada orang yang takde keje nak buat
melainkan menilai kehidupan kita
kita happy ke tak?
kita bahagia ke tak?
is thare any problem kalo aku happy?
or is there a BIG DEAL pulak kalo aku tak happy?
or macam mana pulak kalo aku pura2 happy???
wohoo..boleh buat thesis tuu..
untuk mengkaji sejauhmana perilaku aku
menyembunyikan perasan...
kenapa menda ni tak habis2 datang?
since aku skolah..ingat dah habes
bawak2 sampai universiti pulak????
if u're happy, than i'm happy for u laa..
but if i AM happy..apesal suma orang x pecaya pulak?
n assume yang aku berpura2 keriangan??
huhh??got such thing meh??
aku ni rahsia pon x pandai simpan..aptah lagi perasaan beb!!
if aku gembira, then i just said it loud..if not, then you can see me cry...
being miles away from home..sometime memang ar sedey..
but i'm 22..n i'm old enough to handle my life...ALONE!
yess...but it doesnt mean that i'm lonely......
nobody forced me to be here...

i was here because I WANT TO BE HERE...

its my choice...pilihan ke4 dalam senarai universiti selepas UM, UKM & UIA..

bukan pilihan ke 7 @ ke 8

atau 9 10... [perlu ke aku explain sampai mcm nih??]

dgree in economics memang pilihan aku dari skolah...so what?

aku ada kawan yg baik, ada bilik yang tak payah share ngan sesapa..

xde paper kene repeat...tak payah fk pasal extend2 ke hapa..

ptptn dapat...fmly ok..bf baik...than what else?

AKU SIHAT!

there's no such thing to be sad @ kecewa setiap masa....

i've alot of things to do..

i loved what i'm doing..

banyak menda baru yang boleh di-explore..

daripada menangisi masa2 yang tak dapat diluangkan bersama org2 yang aku sayang

hidup memang tak selalu happy...n tak selalu gembira jugak..

but its part of your life...

pandai2 arr nak colour....

hidup aku tak banyak masalah...

yang ada cuma keje assingment yang bertimbun..

kelas 3 hari je seminggu...masih nak bagi reason untuk tension?

thats bullshit...!

stimboat & mrewang

salam again n again

sejak akhir-akhir ini

banyak pulak perancangan yang dibuat

lepas trip pegi serikin

n plan without planning untuk makan angin ke miri

[which i CAN'T wait]

janet had plan to meet with the new friends..oh yeah..

plan punya plan..

end up we came with a decision untuk makan stimboat

huaaa..thats a gud plan from janet chong and the gang!

finally kami berjaya menghimpunkan diri..btw, last time makan stim boat mase bila ponn tak hengat...tp this time agak baru..cuz being at the new place with the new people..

oh man i loved that...

so ahli jemaah seramai 8 orang kesemuanya..4 dari ekonomi antarabangsa [my classmates laa] n 4 others dari kos ekonomi industri..oways there, but never being so close...

tp sume mcm dh kenal lama je bila jumpa...

ullallaaa........

oh yeah..kuching ni memang terkenal ngan makanan laut yang MURAH...

n guess what?trip untuk kali ni, EAT AS MUCH AS U CAN...bayar cume rm17..

yup..cuma tujohblas hingget..berbaloi gile..dah arr makan buffet..

then kedai tu akan sediakan 2 periuk..1 untuk stim..1 lg untuk goreng.

then ade butter provided..

besides than makanan sejuk beku, mcm ketam roll laa, fish ball/cake laa, n mcm2 bahan ala2 yong taufu tu, ade jugak daging ayam n lembu yang diperap..

means that, bile bakar..giler sedap macam sate!!!

so its your option whether nak stim atau bakar..

sumanya atas periuk kuali tu lah..then de bg ajinamoto, n garam some more!

then ade jugak nasik n ice cream..sume tu leh bantai amik je bape banyak korang nak

all included dalm harga rm17 tuu...phew..

babe...gua makan sampai nak muntah!

then lepas peru kenyang, & since sewa keta pon 4 jam

kitorang pon jenjalan laa kat area town kuching tu..

macam pelancong arr pulak..since tempat tu memang banyak mat saleh pon..

n banyak lah aksi gila n poyo berjaya dirakamkan

walopon pakai cmera handphone..huhuk

biase le..student..mane mampu beli SLR...hek2

kadang2 seronot jugak merewang memalam ngan member yang banyak kepala

tapi satu ideologi nih...

and the most important thing..dapat kuar dengan aman tanpa menerima panggilan dari mak ayah...[bf tu biase le..]

&&&...being the only one 'muslim' girl among others..pon mencabar jugek beb!
haizz tah arr nape..tak kira mane aku pegi...member yang paling ngam tetap ngan amoi jugek..

alah like people oways said lahh..when you are in Rome, just do what the Romans do..

same goes to me..when you're in sarawak..just do what the sarawakians do..haha

next trip to be: Chicken Hut..insyaallah..with this 'Ngam Ho' team...

yehaaaa....will be back soon

i'm loosing my control...

salam again...
only today i feels like writting..

i woke up at 12pm..& i felt dizzy..
i used to be in the library rite now..
but due to my dizzy-nest
i hold that for a while..

i went to the nearest cafe to buy lunch
even it still far for me to walk
i came back with shaking..n cannot finish my lunch

its weekend...and i'm all alone
my friends going back..leaving me lying on my bed
but i'm not lonely..

i loved taking picture
but i dont have a camera
but poeple still credit me for my picture
eventhough it captured by using my phone

everyone wish to have a nice boyfriend
lucky i have one..
whom nicer than everyone
but most of the time, i exploid the kindness
n can't stop blaming myself for that..

i stole..
even i know it was a sin
but whom should i blame?
when i'm running out of bucks?

for the passed years..
i've been thinking bout my study
what college, what programme..
n now i've only a year to finish
which i can't stop to think bout my career..

i have alot of friends
part of them are my 'buddies'
but only now i realized
my only best buddy is 'her'

i used to get friend with everyone
but none of them was really suit with my soul
n yes..it was only 'her'..
but she's not even know i have a blog..

i troubled a lot of people
i broke the promises
i ruin the plan
i spoil everything
but what can i say..
i'm sorry for that...

i missed my mom
i missed my cat..
i missed to take breath in my home
and of cuz i missed him alot...
but they're miles away.....

i used to be busy doing my final year projects
but i still have time updating my blog
editting my page in friendster, myspace n fb..
n yes..i'm waisting my time

i shop alot
until i overspend my money
but who cares..
i know everyone loves me

i respect my bf very much
not because he's my bf
but bcuz he never show his anger
to the person he love..

i feel wanna cry
but i'm tired of crying
feeling like i'm just waisting my tears

working is sucks...
but i need the bucks
i wish i can be like this forever
which i know i wont

i had a dream..
but it was a nightmare..

i want to get married
with the person that i loved so much
but i'm more prefer to talk about
my own career
can't wait to have my own car
rather than a baby
dreaming of my own house
rather than a husband..
whats wrong with me?

sometimes i loose control
i scold people
but he was always there to calm me
end up..i scold him
but y he never scold me back?

there's alot of things happened
that sometimes i felt regrets
but it wont take long..
pretty soon it happend again..
n i feel regret again..

i have plenty of mistakes
that i called them as 'experience'

i just remember one thing
life is not measured by the number of breath i take
but by the moments that takes my breath away..

thank you for reading..
as long as you understand my words
my 'poor english' doesnt too obvious..

dan akhirnya....

woo-hoo...

finally we made it!

dengan perancangan yang teliti

akhirnya berjaya jugak naik 'bot kayuh'

with my best buddies

azra & janet chong

yeah..i'm hanging by a moment with those sarawakians

at the middle of the 'tasik'

and also with my classmates

mr. awie & mr. franky

dude it was so damn cool..

enjoying the views

feels the wind

free your mind

poponnn..

yeah..tasik oso got traffic jam

cuz people were bz working out

releasing their stress might be..

enjoy your life dude

since you are still alive!

hari membeli dan membelah..

dah lama tunggu hari nih...sebab me & my friends nak g explore 1 tempat ni...

namanya serikin...

tempat ni actually at the border between s'wak & indon..
maka bermula lah sesi penjelajahan melihat bumi tuhan..

sewa kreta half day jer...tp alhamdulillah...finally sampe juak!
actually this is my second time going there..but this time lain skit sebab plan betol2

huk..huk..

perjalanan mengambil masa hampir 2 jam..jalan memang tak smooth langsung..jalan cuma 2 lane je pegi balik..then banyak sangat lori besar sebab on d way nak g tempat tu, memang pass by banyak bukit n kilang simen..i guess la.

mase on the way tu sempat aku snap gambar..cuz takut tetido..hehe..cantik nya awan...

finally.....

we reach there..yeyy...tempat ni macam pasar je sebenarnye..open only on weekends..

ni one of my friend la janet a.k.a d DRIVER yg bertanggung jawab diatas journey kami kali ni..then telekung & handbags tersangat la murah..

on that day..aku borong 3 telekung n 3 handbags d & g, Bonia n LV

fuiyooo....dasyat nye brand..

untuk sape lagik kalo bukan orang kampung..miahaha

habis la orang2 kampung CORNVILLE tertipu pasnih..heheh

ini pic yang 1st time g..tempatnya macam tu lah..a long street with people selling omost the same things..

hah..i'm wearing RAYBAN babe..sebab sunglass besepah..10 rgt plak tu..cangak lagi? panas & penat..tp cam amy cakap la...BERBALOI-BALOI

end up balik dengan kreta yang penuh dengan barang..

next time kalo famly ada, insyaallah sampe la lagi kat sini kot..

go i must...return i will.....

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haha...sebenarnya lom habis citer gie..that was just a part of the day untuk hari membeli dan membelah...journey diteruskan untuk mencari pot seterusnya..

jeng..jeng..jeng...tempat apakah ini???sale sampe 70%???mane bole tahan..

walopon letih nak mampos g jalan kat serikin, kitorang lepak gak kat pasaraya SPRING ni

dasyat betol dia nya clearance..memang clear habis aku sapu..gugugaga

pergh..kesimpulannya..dah start elegik dah ngn mesin ATM skarang

muahaha......

plan without planning..

yehaa..

finanally my wish untuk menjelajah Borneo akan terlaksana..

a journey to NORTH-WEST sarawak...Miri here i come

stutus: confirmed

depart from Kuching: august 13 2009 @ 19:15 (AK6546)

depart from Miri:august 18 2009 @ 18:50 (AK6547)

"I'm leaving on a jet plane..donno when i'll be back again.."

there's no limit to reach the sky....

since you are away for two months...

it was a great idea to have a walk with ur best buddy

watching the sunset...

eventhough the sun wuz not 'set' yett....

but it was actually hiding behind the water tower..
...credit to Chong, J. for the rite timing..
where the SUN wuz just accidently came out...just in time...

and we started to feel the excitements

to see each other back...are we??? heh..

& watching people doing such things...

make us wonder why we're just watching from the top?

and let the passion and happiness of other people

ruin the evening...

oh boy..i wish it was me ..

"Masa yang lepas itu sesungguhnya telah meninggalkan kamu, tetapi masa akan datang sentiasa melawat kamu. Apbila kamu hitungkan apa yang sudah berlalu,biarkanlah,maka wajib atas kamu meghitungkan pula masa yang di hadapan itu pelawat bagi kemajuan dan kebahgiaan..."
Ismail, F.

to be continue...

...dan bermulanya semester 5...

phew...selepas menempuh perjalanan yang panjang dan memenatkan..merentasi laut china selatan semata-mata untuk menghabiskan baki pengajianku..akhirnya sedar tak sedar dah omost 2 weeks pon kat sini...memang sekejap je ase...n for this semester..ade rase lain sket cuz dah jadik senior..just senior, but not very the senior ocay..hehe

overall my class seems to be like usual..minggu pertama bermula dengan hari2 yang relax tapi agak kelam kabut..masih pening untuk susun & daftar subjek..n of cuz have to be much more prepared on my thesis project...so walopon untuk semester 5 aku akan free pada hari rabu n jumaat..tapi keseluruhan masa free tu akan diisi dengan researching.. huu~

here are the subject...hahai...gogo chayok to myself..!!!

EBI3095 International institution & consultancy

EBF3073 Inter. finance

EBE2023 Economic growth & developement

EBE3013 Current economic issues

PBI1012 English 4 profesional purpose

n one 'PENDING' subject..

so 6 subjek untuk di-clear kan dalam seminggu memang senang..around 3 days seminggu je pagi petang..malam relax..TAPI due to my final year project, i've to put 110% efford on that cuz kalo GAGAL, kene repeat SETAHUN..nehiiii.....so will be bz lah aku kunun nya lepas ni..

i've choose the title maself : The Demand of Islamic Banking Services: Empirical study in Kedah

under my fave. lecturer: Mr Puah Chin Hong...

n our target: "complete chapter 123 dulu semester ni......" said my SV....

then ready for your 'pre-VIVA'...muahaha..cam phd Jah Wou laks...gegege

harap dapat setelkan sume keje ontime..insyaallah..!

hello classmates!!

fuh..its been a while..lame tol x jumpa kawan2 skolah ni..oleh sebab ade kenduri kat umh Mr. Zackry..then they were inviting me to join..THANKS zack for the foods!!!

mat anip (green stripe) - medical student @ UIA

asrul hanif (grey stripe) - practical @ TNBs..later will be working with TNB lah..bravo!

zulaihi (brown with sunglass on head) - already working with TNBs for 2 months... recently, bcome a student @ Politeknik Kulim..gud luck yg!

zakri (black t at d back) - tentera @ n9..kem apa tah x ingt..trrrr....

hairy (biggest guy) - dgree in mass com @ uitm shah alam...

en.hairi teruja melihat 'durian kawen'

then since umah zack just bape ratus meter je dari pantai...of cuz la i ajak sume org pegi kan..cuz that was being one of my wish yang belom temakbul lagi..

ala janji semua orang masuk frame...hehe
then alang2 dah ade kat pantai, sempat jugak la i dating..huhu

lucky i'm in love with my best friend...lalalala

as u can see..there's a big different between orang yang study medic ngan orang dah keje..

orang study, kurus kering slim jer..org keje, gemuk bulat perut boncit..keh2

asrul hanif was actually involved in accident..tangan de sangat teruk diseret n mengalami luka yang agak parah..hehe..thats y la he's holding tangan cmtu..

mase reunion tu, ade plak satu statue..macam tugu negara lak..

ape lagi,trus je i snap gambo ngn tugu gemok nih..

wakakaka...

ske sangat laa buat aksi poyo..

there's plenty of pics yang berjaya dirakamkan...tp cukup lah setakat ini..

gambar2 poyo yang lain terpaksa ditapis untuk mengelakkan pembaca blog ini dari mengalami trauma..tq..

Shawl @ jalan TAR

At the last day before "i'm leaving on a jet plane" to kuching, sempat laa aku jenjalan kat jalan TAR n area depan SOGO tu..actually my friend kat sarawak tu order kain baju kurung..then it forced me to have a walk around there....huhu..sorang2 pulak tu..tp keje aku memang paling menjadi bila aku sensorang..kui kui..

So jalan punye jalan, sempat jugak la aku snap-shot beberape pic untuk dikongsi..skrang kan musim SHAWL..aku tgok banyk gile shawl cecantik bergantungan kat situ..perghh....

Dalam aku meninjau2 tu, ade la 1 kedai ni yg menarik perhatian...walopon sume kedai jual menda yang sama, tapi kalo bargain sambil buat muke tecian..memang boleh dapat murah..

..and this is it...

banyk gak design cecantik...geram pulak aku tengok..even aku x penah pakai shawl pon b4 dhis, cam tertarik lak aku untuk beli sehelai...then banyak sangat chioce..pening aku nak pilih..

end up...aku telah pilih 2 helai shawl yg bg aku TERCANTIK..haha..tp aku x bape arif sgt la tentang pemilihan corak shawl ni..

so what u guys think?ok x taste aku??ngeh ngeh..i bought this 2 shawls dengan harga 15 bucks je..means sehelai 7.5 la..kalo kat kedai lain, one item for 10..aku dah jimat 5 ringgit..worth2..